Reckless Love

I was in high school when a good friend of mine told me something that has stuck with me since: every single person you are close to will fail you or let you down in some way in your life, but God never will. In high school, that didn't mean too much.  As an adult, I've learned it's definitely true.  This past Thanksgiving weekend should have been filled with love, laughs, and joy.  Instead, it was interrupted with let downs. What should have been fun, family time became filled with anger and bitterness.

On the way home from Louisville, I heard a song by Matt Hammitt called "All of Me".  The words say:

"You're gonna have all of me, You're gonna have all of me

'cause you're worth every falling tear, you're worth facing any fear.

 You're gonna know all my love even if it's not enough

 Enough to mend our broken hearts, but giving you all of me is where I'll start." 

It's funny how most of us are so ready to open and share our lives with other people.  We crave love from others.  It means a lot to us when others invest in us, and to those closest to us, we would share anything with.  But like my friend in high school says, people let you down.

How much more should we give to God, who never lets us down.  He strongly desires to have all of us, but instead we put our trust and hope in those close to us here on Earth  Then we get frustrated when we are let down.

There's another line in the song that says "so let me recklessly love you".
The definition of reckless states: utterly unconcerned about the consequences of some action; without caution.


How much does God desire that we recklessly love Him, giving ALL of us to Him?  Not just our finances, or a situation that seems unfair, or our family, but every single part of our being.

This is what I desire and am searching for this week in my personal quiet time.  How can I recklessly love Him,  giving Him control over my entire life?  Because I know the more I give to Him, the more He will reveal Himself to me.

Not My Understanding.

This past week has been a not so good week.  To keep it brief, several events occurred this week that went completely against the 3 big, audacious prayers Eddie and I have been praying the last couple of months.  Each of the 3 prayers. Not just one.  At one point, I seriously thought God was mocking us.  I was angry, confused, and disappointed.  I've recently been taught at church to keep knocking on the door with shameless persistence.  Let me just say, I've probably prayed more in the last 2 months than I have in years.  But this last week, it seemed like none of it mattered.

Yesterday, I was so overwhelmed, I opened my YouVersion bible app on my phone and went to the reading plans.  This was my first time doing so, so I didn't even know how it worked.  I found you can search for plans based on the topic, so I scrolled through a list.  Towards the very bottom, was a word that stuck out - trust.  At that moment, I had no trust. Everything seemed to be working against me and falling apart.  I needed to regain that.  So I started the 4 day plan.

The verses yesterday started to renew my hope in the Lord, but today something even more incredible happened.  The scripture for today was the exact same verse as the K-Love encouraging word, which I had just read seconds before.  Only this time, there was a second verse added:

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.

Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take."

Proverbs 3:5-6

At the present moment, I simply can't understand how God is going to work in this situation, and I've questioned him on it.  While to me, everything looks like my prayers won't be answered, God has a bigger plan.  He sees the bigger picture that I can't see.  And though it's really hard right now, I'm trusting him for that.

Brittney