Not My Understanding.

This past week has been a not so good week.  To keep it brief, several events occurred this week that went completely against the 3 big, audacious prayers Eddie and I have been praying the last couple of months.  Each of the 3 prayers. Not just one.  At one point, I seriously thought God was mocking us.  I was angry, confused, and disappointed.  I've recently been taught at church to keep knocking on the door with shameless persistence.  Let me just say, I've probably prayed more in the last 2 months than I have in years.  But this last week, it seemed like none of it mattered.

Yesterday, I was so overwhelmed, I opened my YouVersion bible app on my phone and went to the reading plans.  This was my first time doing so, so I didn't even know how it worked.  I found you can search for plans based on the topic, so I scrolled through a list.  Towards the very bottom, was a word that stuck out - trust.  At that moment, I had no trust. Everything seemed to be working against me and falling apart.  I needed to regain that.  So I started the 4 day plan.

The verses yesterday started to renew my hope in the Lord, but today something even more incredible happened.  The scripture for today was the exact same verse as the K-Love encouraging word, which I had just read seconds before.  Only this time, there was a second verse added:

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.

Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take."

Proverbs 3:5-6

At the present moment, I simply can't understand how God is going to work in this situation, and I've questioned him on it.  While to me, everything looks like my prayers won't be answered, God has a bigger plan.  He sees the bigger picture that I can't see.  And though it's really hard right now, I'm trusting him for that.

Brittney