There are so many new things going on in life right now. So much change, and I want to remember as much as I can. I've decided to write letters to my kids, my ninos. (I know the middle n is missing the Spanish tilde, but it's 10:30 and I'm running on 5 hours of sleep, and I can't find the special characters menu on my laptop...) I want to remember the little things, and I want them to know just how much they mean to me. So here's the first:
Ninos,
If only you knew how much of a whirlwind the last few months have been for mommy & daddy. New baby. Meme's death. New jobs. New city (moved to Northern KY). House not selling like we thought it would. It's so easy for my thoughts to creep to things that easily stress me out - finances/bills, chores, the fact that my family is 3 hours a way. I daily try to remind myself that you are only small once. I hold you in my arms and look at you while you sleep. And I thank God SO MUCH for my miracle babies.
Kaleb- You had so much fun on our visit to Henderson this last Memorial Day weekend. You played SO hard and wore Pappaw out! There was one point where you and Pappaw were out on the swing on his patio, and your dad and I were watching the 2 of you interact. You had a bowl of pretzels and kept sharing them with Pappaw. He would take them and you would both just laugh. The bond between the 2 of you is incredible. I think it's because you're smart, like Brandon was. You remind him a lot of Brandon. Pappaw told daddy how much he misses you since we've moved. It simply broke my heart. Nanny was cooking one morning and made the smoke detector go off again, and it scared you so hard you couldn't breathe through your crying. You're obsessed with smoke detectors, but freak out when they go off. I don't get it. But I love my smoke detector loving little boy.
I laid with you tonight as you went to bed. I took your hand in mine and just held it, and watched you fall asleep. You are almost 4 and I just can't believe it. You are intelligent and have a passion for learning. I love coming up with new things to tell you about every day. Last week I told you about bones and skeletons and you've been talking about them ever since. I'm so grateful to be your mama.
Emilia- You had a rough day today for your Aunt Brandi (or so she says...) but you were an angel for mommy tonight. I love the way your smile lights up a room. You've learned to laugh out loud, and tonight when I was putting on your PJs, I kept kissing your belly and neck just so I could hear that laugh and see your smile. It never gets old. You didn't want to go to sleep alone tonight, so I laid you on my bed and curled up next to you. I know it won't be long before you don't need me, so I'm soaking it up while I can.
Mommy is running on little sleep, so that's enough for tonight. I can't wait to love on you both tomorrow. Sweet dreams my little babies.
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